Friday, June 19, 2015
What a Privilege
Sometimes, wow...I seriously love my life.
Y'all. This week has been hard. From start to finish (and it's not even over yet!) It's been hard physically, hard emotionally, hard spiritually, hard from a parenting perspective...
But in the midst of my exhaustion and moments of fear and doubt, God whispers to me that He's got this. Why do I fight that so much? Why do I doubt?
I went to bed about 2 hours ago - and have already been woken twice by little people in utero and out (ha) My mind was working overtime and I picked up my phone to see messages that had poured in after our Nourish Friday night dinners ended.
By the way, for all of you who attend or host a dinner, this is probably my favorite part of the weekend so keep reaching out to us.
I read messages, I scrolled through pictures and I just burst into tears.
My heart is so full.
I am so thankful.
Women of Nourish, I haven't even met most of you! But my gosh...You. Are. Inspiring.
Thank you for being brave and for showing up. Thank you to those of you who open your homes and welcome in strangers. Thank you to those of you who leave your house or work on a Friday or Saturday night and step into the new and the unknown.
Thank you fighting back against the stereotype that all women are mean girls. Thank you for taking a risk.
6 or 7 years ago, working with a large group of women like this would've been the last thing on my mind. If you'd told me about Nourish then, I'd have laughed in your face.
This passion we have, for seeing each of you connect and be part of something...I just never would have seen it coming.
Shaunna and I - we don't know what we're doing here. We just felt God had put this passion in our hearts so we jumped. We are figuring this out month by month, day by day. If you knew how much we talked about you, prayed for you, thought about you - well you'd probably think we were crazy stalkers. But really, we LOVE each of you.
It isn't easy keeping tabs on a group of women that spans across the city, that isn't focused on any particular group or church or religion or age, etc. It makes my head hurt sometimes, worrying that we've dropped the ball on something or missed someone or something or hurt someone's feelings accidentally. Have we been too churchy or not churchy enough? I can't tell you how many times I've woken in a panic in the middle of the night sure that we'd forgotten to respond to an email or put someone in a group.
But as each month passes, one thing I know for sure - God is placing each of you in your group for a reason. He is orchestrating your lives, your friendships...He is weaving together a beautiful and rich story of love and acceptance and Shaunna and I get to see it happen. What a privilege.
I. Love. You.